Grass is greener AND yellower on the otherside

I often get depressed or frustated for not dating somebody. I mean hey, Being single for more than 2 years especially when you are 21, good-looking, smart, confident, intresting, etc etc, does plain suck at times. Well at lots of times.

Like when I have a day-off and the other girls in the hostel go out, dressed thier best, with thier "Jannus" and "Sweethearts" with those lovey-dovey eyes, I am half heartedly focusing on checking out the Events section of the newpaper to see if there are any decent painting/photography exhibitions in town..

Most of the Times I end up spending a good part of the day at crosswords or just spending my dads money at the mall for stuff which I either dont need or dont have enough place to store in my dinghy little hostel room....
...or burning away my lungs with other single girls and loser guys at a sheesha/hukka bar..

I get so jealous when my roomate Ritika when she gets pampered (and showered with presents/flowers on and off)..

But when I see Ritika and her boyfreind, burning with insecurity, cribbing about irrelevant issues like "why did Vandana sit so close to you in class???", (esp. when the close is 2 rows away!)...

Thier fighting for every other reason under the sun and then going hungry for days togather..

Not talking to anytoher guy untill and unless she publically annouces and labels him as her "muh-bola bhaiya" or Brother..

Anupam (Ritikas' Boyfriend) not beign able to have a boys' night out because Ritika doesnt approve of it..

All this sounds like Bullshit or insanity to me..If people get into relations for making each others lives miserable, I'm happy visiting bookstores by myself.

I mean hey, its a relationship, for godsake. How can you love a person if according to you everything about him/her is wrong and should be changed??

Such relationships are nothing but emotional masturbation (and physical satisfaction!)

If this is what all I am supposed to do after getting into a relationship, God, Thankyou for this "Single" tag as far as my dating status is concerned..

But it wouldnt hurt if someone did sponsor my shopping sprees and worship me all day long..!!