Where are the tears??

3:24 pm.
I was asleep in my hostel room, owing to weakness and a very, very upset stomach and an all girls night previously.
My roommate walked in " Priyanka, this guy Nitesh Soni from your class.." I said, not the least bit awake.. "yeah, what about that jerk", "he expired today" she said as a matter-of-factly.

My head spinning, and not taking in the news..All that came to my head was Nitesh...Nitesh Soni..a faint hint..yes...that loud mouth, ill-behaving jerk..woh GANVAR...that nuisance of the class...
How could he be dead??

"Hey Listen the teachers are forcing us to go to the hospital where his body is lying" said Ritika..
I sat up on the bed, head still spinning.."lets go, I'll be ready in 5 minutes" I said.
"Arey yaar, why the hell do you want to come? Firstly we have to go and face all this Rona-dhona, and if you come along, we'll have to take care of you and your health also"

I said I am FINE. I will Take care of myself. Let me come with you guys.
They wouldn't take me.
In the end, These Girls weaseled out and nobody actually went to the hospital.

I remember, in school days, we lost our classmate, Jutsin in a similar accident. I remember crying for hours...the entire class going to the funeral..everybody doing their bit to console Justins parents.

Most Importantly, we felt..our hearts felt..We were16-17 back then.
We are 21 today. We feel nothing. Our hearts dint move today. I know its a different crowd all together, but hey..emotions are universal.

But where have the emotions gone? where are they hiding?
Why don't we feel anything today.

My roommate took the day off and is out shopping. The boys, being boys had to go. No-options.

And as far as I am concerned, here I am...putting this up on the blog.
Once again..It makes me think, where is the world heading? what has happened to us? God forbid, if these sad news concerned any of our intimate or immediate circles, wouldn't our world feel like it has turned upside down??

I know acceptance is necessary, But as these years are going by...We are just learning of accept things really, really fast. Isnt it? Like Fast food, Fast communication, We just move-on Faster...
Where are the Bloody Tears??
As far as Nitesh Soni is concerned, I will never see that "ganvar" again. God bless him and may god give strenght to his parents to accept the facts.Where